a story from my friend

it happened for many years ago....

when carl (bukan nama sebenar) converted into A religion because of something.

carl used to be a person that enjoy his life according to him by having sex almost every night and drunk... at that time he was still believed in B religion. one day, at first he making fun of the A religion book. he said that it was ajaran sesat.

one day, carl was riding his motocycle with his beloved girlfriend and suddenly they involved in accident. they happened to involve in self accident. he almost died if no one come ad rescue them asp. he almost could not make it to the hospital according to the doctor..

after that, he opened his heart to be someone that is good. follow his religion. but he doesn't know where to start. poor him.. he when to meet the religious perso to talk and asked for the permission to learn all over again about B religion that he missed. the first place that he went, he only manage to get insult by the religious person. second day he went to the same place, same thing happened. then he went to other places. same thing happened.

he met his friend that he insulted about their holy book before. and the friend took him to A religious person. he refused at first but later, after his friend told him to meet it for some advice, he agreed. when they were back from the A religion place, he felt happy and calm. he said he never been in such a calm place like that and feel very welcome...

maybe GOD opened his heart to learn about the A religion through his dream. he begin by reading the holy book that he insulted before. as he read it, he also go to the A religion place just to sit and feel calm inside it. after 3 months experiencing such happiness and welcome by the A religious person, he decided to be or shall i say convert to A religion.

he said that, he never been welcome to learn back his own religion and been insulted by the religious person when he want to learn and in Malay we say taubat. they even like HALAU him due to his dirtiness by having sex with all those bohsia and many girls outside there.

this happened many years ago.... the person carl ( bukan nama sebenar) has past away. this story was told by the generation after him which is his children...

we cannot jugde other due to thier missarable life and mistake they did. give them forgiveness and let them learn. why shall we decide them to go to hell if GOD has not jugde and make HIS decision. we can open the door for them to back to the right path but please don't insult them and jugde them. and don't blame they if they converted into other religion although we might not like it.

taking advantages

being lonely is not a bad thing. for me, its part of my life. i am a loner. yea... i know. i used to it. since i was a child i only has my FAMA. therefore, i feel free in whatever i wanna do. i do not like much to consider other person feeling but i am not gonna reveal it to them on the spot.

as i am a lonely person, make me a person who is punctual, organize, tidy and not to forget detail.
at first i did not realize that i owned this quality. but when i traced back my history with my friends, its proved the fact.

i just love to accommodate others because i love to share what i know with others dan be friendly with others. yeah... i am a boring person and i know people only come to me for certain reasons and not much that all about me but most of the time its all about them.

i realized it for a very long time. its their intention they will deal with GOD. if they are sincere they will through but if not, we meet later. i try to be sincere with my friends. not using them most of the time because of the importance for myself.

HOLIDAY means NOTHING to me

people will be happy when they heard about holiday. same goes with me but.. for me the feeling of excitement is only at the end of the semester where i only know that would be the only holiday that i have for the whole semester...

for others might be different. even the weekends also their holidays. this is because they can go back and meet someone they miss most like their family.

but for me.. nothing special during the weekends or any holidays. it just the time for me to rest. that's all. although i might seem not to miss my family but deep inside my heart i miss them a lot.

even i miss a lot of events that required me to be there. but i never cry like some of my friends. they cry because they cant make it there. i am just wondering if they were studying in sabah and sarawak. are they gonna cry everyday?

my study years have taught me a lot. i realized that what my mom trained me before it is very useful in the future. now it is proven. this make me think more mature than others.

i might seem like a loner but i am. i love to be alone. i don't mine because i brought up only with my mom and father. therefore i am used to it. although sometimes i feel lonely but the loneliness accompany me when i feel that way. i feel comfortable being alone rather than in a big group.

therefore my friends.. please don't cry like a baby when you can't be with your family for the moment.. you might think you are unlucky but you need to think back people like me, who don't have any chance to meet my family for 3 to 4 months. we are now old enough to think and be on our own feet. i am not envy with all of you just i am sick with people who are immature.

like i told IJA that if we want to be young.. let us be young in heart but action we must be mature.. the way we think need to be mature...

money.. money.. money...

just now i went to giant to buy some food for me to cook for this weekend.

therefore i bought some canned food, 2 bottles 1oo plus, a packet of cloud 9, apples and eggs. i am very surprise when the sales girl told me that it worth rm48.00. i asked her again how much and the number remain the same...

i checked the items that i bought and it is correct...

it make me realized something....

nowadays... RM 50 ringgit worth nothing... in future i think RM 50 might be equal to RM 5. Who Knows...

same goes to 1 cent before... we can buy 2 sweets back to 1980s but now... people don't want to keep the 1 cent.... money.... money... money..... i am ur slaves....

i lost another friend

feel sad and still can't accept the reality that one of my fiends past away last night.

the sadness may not be seen but the heart portray the sadness that i have. i think i am the last person that he sms before he gone forever.

" bila nak wat reunion lagi weh.. ar ar aku miss aritu..."

then i replied: " tu ar ko masa reunion x datang mcm2 alasan ko ari tu. kalo nak wat, ko plan bile?"

I never know the WHEN he wanted to do it because he would not be able to reply anymore... feel sad....

i never imagine that he departed that soon.. it is unpredictable!!!

i pray for him... i hope he leave the world in peace although his wish will never be achieved....

GONNA MIZ U MY BELOVED FRIEND.... :(